04-03-24
It started on a sunny day in the middle of October, it was cold outside and the birds are doing what they do best.
Actually, it started not that way at all. Since I am 71 years old we did a PSA test at the yearly checkup.

What is a PSA number?

This PSA test measures the levels of prostate-specific antigen (PSA) in your blood, which may be elevated due to prostate cancer.

04-05-24
The PSA was elevated and the PSA number was 9.3. 04-05-24.This also shows me that I am a real man with balls. That is a good thing in to days environment.
If the supreme court judge Jackson does not know what a women is, I for sure know that i am a real man.

This was an interesting emotional experience when the doctor gave me that information that there is a high probability of cancer. To find out he wanted me to get a biopsy.

10-17-24
I did an MRI and found out, yes I have cancer in one of my balls. I also found out that the cancer was more aggressive. That means that I will be on this side of the grass for hopefully another 10 years. One never knows.

11-25-24
After the MRI I had another doctor visit and we talked about what can be done, what can I expect for the next 10years. That put me in an emotional down ward thinking. So that during the doctor visit a lot of things I did not hear or understood what else he was saying.
He had two solutions,
1. Cut off both balls, with a lot of complications afterwards. From having to walk around with a diaper, to getting continues infections to lowering my quality of life.
2. Radiation, has similar outcomes. Damaging the nerves, so I do not know when I need to pee.

I went home that day with the knowledge that my days are counted. Now we need to look at the numbers he gave me and what kind of numbers are they, that was the question. After two days of thinking I finally looked at the numbers. This was my first and very important action to find out what I can do or not do about the cancer.
You have to know that I do not take any medication or vaccines for anything period, including no COVID-19 Killer shot. My natural immunity has been updated when I got sick for 14 days, normally it takes four to six days. This time around it took 14 days. I am still alive and feel better than ever. I do take vitamins on a daily basis to help my immune system.

Now we need to go back to the numbers. Those numbers are very interesting when you analyze them and figure out the real meaning.
First of all it is all theoretic and a lot of guesses are done to arrive at those numbers.
All those numbers are in reverence of a lifespan of 10 more years to live. What is the probability that i am gone from just the cancers side point of view, nothing else.
The doctor gave me a sheet of paper with a lot of number on it.

First number 3.7%. This number is the probability that I will be dead before the 10 years mark. It took me awhile what i am looking at. And than the light bulb turned on. That 3.7% actually means that I have a chance of 96.3% that i will make the 10 year marker. My question is, with a 96.3% chance of winning will you go into a casino and gamble, my answer is yes. Do you see something what is happening, the doctor showed me the negative numbers so I would go for the operation to cut off the balls or would jump to the Radiation immediately without thinking.

Now to the next number 2.2% with removing both of the balls or having radiation. That is a 97.8% of making the 10 year mark. Now we need to look at the numbers closely and see, and understand the difference.

1. Do nothing 96.3%
2. Operation/Radiation 97.8%

Difference is 1.5%

A gain of 1.5%. or 54 days to live longer with a 10 year span. Now, I have the same question again. Do I cut down my Quality of life now to save 54 days or do I enjoy life now and accept that i may loose 54 days of my life. That is the question that will get answered one way or another.

Things I do not yet understand.
1. If the cancer is in one of my balls, why do you want to cut off both?
2. If the cancer is in one off my balls and you cut them both off, why is the number not 0%, instead of still 2.2%. That tells me that i am still getting prostate cancer even though both of my balls have been removed.
3. How can you get prostate cancer with removed balls. I have an idea, need to ask my doctor. I assume (assume stands for Make an “ASS” out of “U” and “ME”). (Joke) that the cancer has spread already and that is why the % did not go to zero. Or that the cancer still gets generated with the defective DNA and it will show up somewhere else.

Now, let us see what I have done so far.
Since I did not take the COVID-19 killer shot, I became aware of Ivermectin that will help me for COVID-19. I happened to be on Rumble.com (Free Speech Platform) and found Dr. John Campbell. He is a very interesting person to listen too. I learned a lot from him in the last two years. Dr. Campbell is for freedom of choice, that includes, freedom of choice by not taking the COVID-19 Killer shot, instead of taking Ivermectin if needed with very view side effects. Not like the COVID-19 shot. Do your own research, find out for yourself. If the side effects do not scare you, nothing will. So, I bought some Invermectin just in case. This is what I call, go with the flow of life and find out what comes out of it. In the meantime my result of the biopsy came in, it was positive for cancer.
The number was 7. This is how they come up with a number. They take two samples from differed area of the biopsy and compare the cancer cells with the none cancer cells and give them a number. You add up both numbers and if the number is over 6, you are in trouble.

After a couple of weeks gone by, Dr. John Campbell was taking about Invermectin and prostate cancer. My ears popped up, listen to the video three times to make sure about Ivermectin.

My doctor wants to cut off my balls and Invermectin can, maybe, do not know, can help me? will help? Hopefully not kill me in the process? If it kills me, the cancer will not spread anymore, (Is that good or bad?) (Joke)

My thinking was as follow.
Why not do an experiment and take some Ivermectin and see how I react to it. That is the question.

The COVID-19 Killer shot is still consider an experimental vaccine. look at the side effects and than you know why NO body, I mean No body takes full responsibility for the outcome. Given out to billions of people(as a guinea pig) because the COVID-19 shot is still considered an Experimental drug even after more than 4 years in active promoting the use. The ‘WHO’ is OK with that experiment, I am NOT.

So, now back to the my original question. Why not try it out carefully and see how I react to it. In other words, use it as an Experimental treatment for Prostate cancer.

So, I needed to figure out what the doses is for Ivermectin. What I found out is, Your body weight in Kg. divided by two equals the mg of Ivermectin per day. Since I am not a doctor and a very conservative person, the number seamed very high to me. So I changed it from 40mg to 12mg per day. I started taking it for 10 days. First I split the 12mg into 6mg in the morning and 6mg in the evening, just in case my body had a bad reaction too. On the 10th day of taking it, there was a reaction. I got up from the chair and became dizzy for 4-5 seconds, after that everything was OK again, dizziness came never back. So I stopped Ivermectin immediately. Not sure it was Ivermectin, just in case.

Did I take to much Ivermectin? Was that a short lived reaction? Can my body get used to Ivermectin if treatment needs to be extended for a full treatment?
A week later I was at my doctor again to discuss the operation, I decided to wait and see. So, after another PSA test the number jumped from 9.3 to 5.53. That was a good result, was not at all expecting it, but hoping for a smaller jump with the number, maybe 8.5 or even 9.0 would have been an excellent number. But a change to 5.53, this was unbelievable to me. If the number is 4 and above, this is a warning sign. A week later I took another PSA test with Quest Diagnostic. Cost of the test is about $60. This test came out with the number 4.75. “WoW”, what a change. To me, something was not correct, the change was to drastic to believe it was real. Needed to check the documentation from Quest Diagnostics and found out that there test is a different kind of test to get the PSA numbers. Also found out that the test result can be off by +- 20%. Since I am a very conservative person added 20% to the 4.75% and to me it confirmed that the real number is more like 5.53 instead of 4.75%. I know, it is not exactly but close enough for me. Now I changed doctors for the yearly checkup, I asked for another PSA test. The result of this test was 5.6. That makes sense to me.
1. They used the same kind of lab test. Same kind of a test, about the same result. Meaning you can compare the numbers. Quest Diagnostic was too far off, also the deviation was too big.

2. I stopped taking Ivermectin to early, not 18mg / day, so not all cancer got killed, so the cancer is still growing, so the numbers are moving up again. That makes total sense to me. I just hope that this is the truth. I am not sure.

My next step is to take Ivermectin for the full cycle of 8 weeks and the full doses of 18mg per day. This is what the doctor recommended where i bought the Ivermectin from for my body weight of 80Kg. Do you notice the difference from 40mg what I came up with and the doctors prescription of 18mg / day for 8 weeks and than I took only 12mg/day. That was a very good decision to take only 12mg/day. So, be careful, recheck and recheck your medication. Just make sure you recheck one more time. Always be on the conservative side. It helps to stay alive (Joke).

Now it is time to make another doctor visit to my surgeon who wants to cutoff my balls. This time I have a lot of reservation with this visit.
On one side I would like to tell him why the numbers are down. On the other side if I tell him, what is he going to do, that is the question?

1. Is his reaction positive or negative towards Ivermectin?
2. If he is plosive towards Ivermectin, why did he not recommend it before the operation.
3. If he is negative towards Ivermectin, will he try to make me quit the current cycle? Or make me afraid of it? Or make me feel guilty that I came up with this solution.
4. Could he recommend Ivermectin from his bosses point of view? (Office, Hospital guidelines). If he had given me the prescription, could he loose his job, his likely hood and or his license to practice as a doctor?
5. On Rumble.com there is a channel called “AFLDS Americas Frontline Doctor” Dr. Simon Gold she founded this channel. She lost her job, with the hospital, she lost her income and California tried to take her license away because she gave Ivermectin to patient instead the COVID-19 Killer shot.

She got also “De-platformed” from social networks, so she could not tell the truth about Ivermectin on her channel as a treatment for COVID-19. The question is, when we talk about Ivermectin, will the same happened to my doctor. Will he loose his job also? Not on my watch, do I want that. I like him even though I want to slow down with cutting off my balls.

I have another problem in an office. It has to do with the big screen where you can search the internet via voice command, is Google listening to our so called private conversations, need to ask if that assumption is correct. Can I trust them to tell me the truth that is another question. I for sure will go with my feelings. They have guided me very well so far. It is important that you listen to your inner voice very carefully and do not ignore it. It will help you to get to a better place.

Also, what I do before I fall asleep is asking my subconscious to help me to find a solution for the current problem. It is always running and especially at night active anyway, so why not ask for help. During the day, we are making way to many mistakes to call the subconscious awake and active.(Joke) It will come up with a solution, your job is it to write it down as soon as you become aware of it. If you do not do that, the new found solution will get lost within minutes, sometimes within seconds and you are left with a feeling that the solution was excellent but you can not remember anything about it.

With all those problems to be solved, I noticed some interesting reaction about myself. How protective I am of my balls or any part of my body. What the doctor did not noticed or was aware of or did not talk about it, that I lost two fingers on my left hand, finger 4+5. This was a work related accident. The accident took about 1.2 seconds. Later I went back and reenacted the accident to understand why I did not loose my full hand and or maybe part of my arm. Now we know.

This time, cutting off my balls is totally different and having to make the choice with the full knowledge that once the decision is made to cut them off, You can not go back regardless what the outcome is. Like I said, You can cut them loose, kook them and eat them, but you can never put “Humpty Dumpty” back again where they belong.

I will protect them with everything i got. This is an interesting reaction to that problem I got on hand, even if that cuts down my life expectancy. I have to do more thinking about that and understand why I think that way!

I am in the middle of thinking and nothing good comes out.(Joke). My feeling tells me that the number 2.2% of still dying from prostate cancer is way to high for the trauma I have to go thru to extend my life by 54 days. The operation makes no sense from this point of view. My Ex father in law had prostate cancer, the balls got removed and after three more surgeries nothing was the same. He had continues problems with infections, difficulty of peeing, lost the feelings when to pee. A valve got put in in the tubing. Now he had to go to the bathroom every couple of hours because the full bladder feeling was totally gone. One time he forgot to pee at all and ended up in the ER.
Now when I look at that life experience, it took out more than 54 days in 10 years of his life.
So, I need to do more of my thinking!?!?

To cut them loose or not to cut them loose, that is the question?

I, as an adult (hopefully) have a hart time making that decision. What about a child having a sex change operation and changing from a real boy to a illusionary girl. How in the Hell can he make that decision at all at 10 to 18 years, as a child. Can not own a car, drive or vote but can ask a doctor to cut off his penis. They call it “Gender-affirming surgery, I call it Gender mutilation and the doctor is OK with that operation. What kind of doctor does that? If you as a doctor can do that, why not do a “happy” abortion with a full functioning child. What happened to the oath “Do No Harm”. See, when I do my thinking nothing good comes from it. (Joke). I have seen a full video about the operation. It was very difficult to see and wonder now what the video did not show. All the physical and emotional problems, all the scares that are left behind. No wonder that they kill them self after a while. That after the “happy life” has ended and they are still children and have not yet even reached adulthood. Sorry, this was an excursion in my thinking.

12-31-2024
I started researching a little more about the PSA number and why it is going up after removing the prostate. That confirms my thinking that the 2.2% number will never go to zero. The cancer is coming back. This was my feeling, like I said, I am not a doctor but I do my thinking. Now I have the same question again. Why do I want to remove my balls? Extend my life by 1.5% or 54 days (10 Years) and I am in the same place as before. Meaning, The prostate cancer can come back without having a prostate. That is something new to think about. The next question is, What is the probability of that? I need to find out.

01-06-2025
I started with Ivermectin. This will be taken for 60 days 18mg / Day. Will see what kind of pre-result we are getting with the doctor visit on the 13th.
01-13-2025 Doctor visit.

Dream I had last night.

01-06-2025
This dream I had many many version of it. This time it was different. It was my last day at work. I actually hugged people and said good by, as if I would not see them again. I took some parts from the lab with me and put them in my pocket. They were small parts. Can not remember what kind of parts. Than I got outside of the building and wolfs tried to prevent me from going through the area. After a while one wolf stood up and protected me, so I had a passage with no problems. After that I grossed a water area with a small boat. Had a lot of problems with the boat, but made it to the other side. The end of the water area ended up to be on a mountain and I had to go down. The boat, for some reason was suddenly tied to the roller coaster track. This is how I was supposed to go down the mountain. I woke up, knowing that I never went down the mountain. I have no idea what that means, but it is a total change from my other dreams about my last day of work.
I wonder if that has to do with my next German trip, it will be probability my last time going to Germany, that is the feeling I have.
I was wondering if that is the roller coaster ride I am going to have with my cancer. The PSA number going up and down. What I am hoping for is an idea how it will turn out without cutting off my balls.
One never knows what the correct decision is, what to do and how it turns out. Let me hope that my feeling is correct and that this is the best I can do with the current knowledge.

01-07-2024
What I found out that the 10year reference is just an idea. The real number is closer to 3-5 years of life expectancy. From the day you discover it. That means 1 Year is already down the tube. Now it is 2-4 years, let’s hope that is true and not earlier.

I need to prepare myself that this is closer to the truth than anything. That makes more sense if the cancer moves faster than expected. Need to read more stories and compare them to reality the way I experience the hole process.

01-10-25
The problem is if I get the prostate removed, that will for sure cut our traveling down in one shot. I still can get cancer even with the operation. So the question is, do I cut my enjoy now, to not have enjoy later? I can still travel, for how long that is the question? I think this is the last time I will, can go to Germany. I just hope it is not to late already.

01-04-2025
Now is the time to start Ivermectin for the second time.
18mg / day for 60 days.

Doctor visit
01-13-2025
That was an interesting visit with my doctor. We were waiting for the nurse to come in to greet us. She came in, we exchanged a view pleasantries and than came the big question.

The question surprised me in a big way. The question was, What are you taking for medication without a prescription from the doctor? I was thinking what kind a question is that, my answer was Ivermectin, clear and with no hesitation. Later I realized why she was asking me that question in the first place. She noticed that my PSA number was going down from 9.3 to 6.53, that is a 42% reduction of the cancer. With that kind of reduction, I had to take something against the cancer. On my documentation, I took no medication at all. So I had to take something without a prescription from my doctor.
Than she asked me if it was OK to write it into my records that I was taking Ivermectin. That was OK with me at that time.
I was thinking over many days now and came to the conclusion that the entry into my documents at the doctor needs to be removed that I take Ivermectin. Not that it does not work so far, but it can get me in trouble maybe later. I have seen problems the last time with COVID-19 shots. You got the shot, you can go grocery shopping, you do not got the shot, you are unable to buy food. This can also be happening if you take Ivermectin. Hopefully not, one never knows.

Later the doctor came into the room, we made small talk, after that I told him that I took Ivermectin. His reaction was interesting. First of all he did not know that the latest PSA came down from 9.3 to 5.6, this is a reduction of -42% in cancer. I felt like he was indifferent to the result, meaning he did not praise the result nor did he condemn it. I do not believe him, because he looked at the same documents on the computer like the nurse did, so he also saw the PSA number came down. I also gave him a copy of my writings, so he gets a better understanding of my thinking why I do not want the operation or the radiation as my first option of action. Those will be my last options, if at all. He was not for or against taking Ivermectin. But he could not give me a prescription for it either. The out of pocket cost of Ivermectin was $390 for me. Insurance is not going to pay for that. If you can not effort that, what are you going do, that is the question. Billions are going for war, nothing for the US people. The decision we made after awhile is this. In six month I will go back to the doctor and see what our next step will be. In the mean time I started a complete new cycle with Ivermectin and see what my PSA number are, along the way.

The next PSA test will be 02-17-2025. I need to go to the doctor, so I get the same PSA test as before, so that I can compare the numbers, otherwise the test is a different PSA test and you can not compare the numbers.
Will see how it goes.

01-21-25
So far so good. No side effects or any other problems with taking Ivermectin. Hopefully I do not get long term side effects, one never knows. Like the Wright Brothers said, A calculated risk can be taken to find out if it works or not and you see, we have airplanes today. Maybe we are going to Mars. One can hope with Musk’s knowledge.

Like the saying goes, “As the World turns, life goes on”

01-31-2025
Today I noticed that my ED is changing for the better. When I look back, it started about two weeks ago. It is getting better, last longer and it is stronger. Especially in the morning hours. Now I am wondering if that has to do with me, that I take Ivermectin. I CAN NOT find any info about that connection between Ivermectin and ED. I hope that this thinking is correct and not a Placebo effect . Remember, What we think, we become , that includes the wrong kind thinking.
I need to do more research on that to see if that is correct or maybe it is just a wet dream.

02-12-2025 For information only
This is the address I got Ivermectin from.

allfamilypharmacy.com
Do your own research and find out what you should take.

Get the phone number from the Web Page and ask the doctor before you order, just to make sure the number is correct.

Also, please go to Rumble.com
Search for Dr. John Campbell
Video name is Cancer, repurposed drugs, Dr. Makis.

They are talking about the doses also.

There is also another drug called:
FENBENDAZOLE You need to check that out also.

Dr. Campbell is also talking about that one.

Dr. Campbell has a lot of videos about the Covid-19 killer shots. Very good and informative information.

02-17-25
Today I got the PSA test back from Dr. Hollander MD. The PSA Total number was 5.28H.This number makes no sense to me at all. I started out taking Ivermectin with 12mg/day for 10 days. The original PSA number was 9.13 on 04/05/2024, this number changed to 5.53 11-26-25. That was a big change, so, Ivermectin is working and getting the PSA number down, that is the way it looks to me.

01-04-25
I started a new cycle with Ivermectin. 18mg/day for 6 Weeks when I took the next PSA test. Today 02-17-25 I got the test back and the number is 5.28H. So, you are telling me that with all that additional Ivermectin I took that the number went down from 5.53 to 5.28. that is a reduction of 0.25. This reduction is within the error rate of the test. To me there is no change at all. I never expected a big change, as the first time, at all. But a bigger change than a 0.25. I have a lot of questions and no answers.

1. Has the quality of Ivermectin changed? Took 4 tablets of 3mg, now 1 capsule 18mg
2. I assume that we used the same lab, same kind of test.
3. Have I made a mistake? and where was it made.
4. What do I need to change to get a better test result?
5. Should I switch back to the 3mg tablets and take 6 each day to give me 18mg.
6. Is 18mg enough with my cancer? Some need 1mg/Kg that is 40mg of Ivermectin.
7. I do not understand why Ivermectin suddenly has no effect on the prostate cancer.
8. Slowly being not as effective makes sense, fast does not.

02-17-25
Current action: Stay the curse and take 18mg/day for another 2 weeks to complete the current cycle with Ivermectin. So far I have some side effects.

1. Feel more tiered, not a lot, but I noticed the change.
2. Gained 7 pounds of weight. Will see when I stop Ivermectin and see if the weight goes down.

More Questions
Let’s assume that Ivermectin does not work to bring down the PSA numbers, like with the last test from 5.67 to 5.28, so why did the numbers go down with the first test from 9.13 to 5.53.

1. What did I do differently? Like eating differently, drinking, exercising.
What is it, that is the big question to me. Since I do not take any other medication other than Ivermectin, it could not be the medication. The only thing I also take are vitamins. If those vitamins cause the drop in the PSA number, should I not have any high PSA number in the first place, because I took vitamins for a long time before the cancer. So, if it is the vitamins, I should not have cancer at all. So, I do not think vitamins cause the drop in the PSA number.

Let’s assume that Ivermectin is working and has brought down the PSA number from 9.13 to 5.53.

1. So, what about the test on 02-17-25. The test result was 5.28. Almost no change from 5.53. I took more Ivermectin and for a longer time 18mg/day for 6 weeks and we have a very small change with the PSA number. That makes no sense to me.

Conclusion:
I do not understand what the heck is going on. On one side Ivermectin is working, on the other side it is not working. Since I am not a doctor, I have no answer at all. Maybe something else is going on and nobody is saying anything about it.
I need to do more thinking and searching for an answer.